F*** everything–but here’s a new playlist!


You know that feeling where you’ve been hitting the studio after very long days of work and drilling a routine for HOURS, and then come to a rehearsal two days before the show and find out you now how to do everything completely in the reverse of how you trained your body to memorize it?

Oh you don’t?


I would actually have been much better off if I had NOT practiced, because my muscle memory is just utterly bewildered. The changes happened last night. The show is tomorrow. I have both a day job and night job today, so I don’t even know when I can practice this. I just… I just want to go back to bed.

I know, I know, I’m being a big whiny baby and this isn’t even the first time this has happened to me. It’s to be expected in a group performance. I get it. But I really hate looking like the idiot that’s lost on stage and I will be DAMNED if I do.

So here’s the plan: I am going to listen to this song on repeat all day, and dance the shit out of the routine in my head. I will run it in the bathroom mirror. I will do modified versions of the footwork while folding towels at work tonight. I AM COMING FOR YOU, new choreography.

Anyway, I can’t wait till the show’s over and I can hit the pole with my full attention again. Here’s what I’ve been saving up to jam to…

1. Beware, Big Sean

2. Let’s Talk, Omarion Ft. Biggie and Rick Ross


3. Swim Good, Frank Ocean

4. Enough Said, Aaliyah, Ft. Drake

5. Long Way to Go, Cassie




  1. I … don’t understand. Why on earth would you have to switch up? Did someone drop out? I totally think drilling it in your head will work, by the way. Plus you’re a rock star, so if you fuck up you just play it like you meant it – nobody’s going to question it.

  2. This is exactly why I stay away from group routines. I don’t like giving up any part of my control to anyone, or I’ll just freak out and scream “f*** everything” out loud rather than just blogging about it 😉

    It sounds like you have it figured out though, so good luck!

  3. Aww, thanks for the love and encouragement guys 🙂 “formations” are big in BD, and I guess ours was a little lopsided… so I got moved from one side to the other. It’s all good though, I practiced my little tush off and I feel READY 😀 I think the real challenge will be keeping my face neutral if I do screw up 😀

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